A good friend posted an interesting comment on my latest video...and it made me think...so I'm just going to write down a few of those thoughts...
The comment said that I must have lived a lot of life to be able to write the things I do. Which I thought was very interesting.
It's strange, but I really haven't in certain ways. I don't get out much, my idea of fun is just sat listening to Joni Mitchell on vinyl and watching the world go by from my bedroom window. Or sitting at the top of Tennyson Downs and just thinking.
It's a very innocent way to be I guess. People have commented (in real life...not that YouTube etc. isn't real life - but you know what I mean... :)) that I'm naive and quite innocent, and that it seems like I don't know what goes on in the real world. I'm living as if I were seven still...but I know what the 'real world' is like. Hang on, what is the 'real world'? Surely the phrase is defined by the individual...it has billions of different meanings.
It seems the definition according to teenagers living in England is going out, trying to fit in with those around you to seem 'cool' (whatever that means) - by (maybe) drinking and preferably looking like someone from a magazine. People have said to me (people my own age) - 'You're a teenager! Act like one.' Which I think is ridiculous...that's like saying...'You're an OAP! Act like one!' You'd get a lot more stick for saying that. It feels like they think you should fit into a certain box, and because you don't, it confuses them.
I am who I am. And I like living that way, and I'm not doing anyone any harm, so I'm not going to change. I like talking to people who are older than me because I find what they have to say is interesting and I feel I learn from them. I like reading poetry, because I find it interesting. I like learning about software, because it's interesting. I love music and the effect it has on us, because it's interesting. I find 'interesting' just as fun as (I expect) teenagers find normal teenager-esque things that I'm not inclined to...
Back to the comment...
On the surface...I guess the answer is no. I haven't really 'lived'. But mentally, I guess I have. From the situations and people I've encountered I've learnt to separate what I feel is important from the not so important. - And I guess I've decided on different things to people around me who are my age.
My songs are stories, thoughts and moments based around the things I find important.
The fact that my parents are slightly older parents might have something to do with it. As a child I remember being taught to have respect, good manners etc. and going through school I encountered people who hadn't been taught those things...and I didn't like the look of being shouted at in front of the class, so I decided to stick with my good manners and respect....of course, you make the decisions subconsciously though.
When I think back to my childhood, there are a few things that really stand out.
When it was time for me to go to bed, my Mum would come into my room and say goodnight to me, and sing bits of songs to me. Que Sera Sera, A Mouse Lived In A Windmill and Killing Me Softly. And every other night, my Dad would come in and tell me stories about when he was younger and the things that he and his friends used to do. I used to love that so much.
And I've carried that love of creativity with me. And I apply it to things I encounter everyday. I love how words sound when you put them together in a certain way, and I love making stories out of those sounds. I especially love it when someone else can also relate to what I've produced. Music is deeper than thought, it comes from the core of you and to connect with someone else's core is a wonderful feeling.
And I'm always making up stories in my head. I pretty much live in a fantasy world actually. It's not that I don't know about the 'real world' - it's just that I choose to live elsewhere. It suits me better.
I'm sorry for the long, contemplative, possibly slightly confusing post. (Well, I'M confused. :-S) I was trying to work out the answer as I was going along. But now I realise that there is no answer.
Should have known. ;)